Friday, July 08, 2005 ♣
i'm a failure. [okie, make that FAILURE.]
okie, i seem to be blogging on a weekly basis nowadays.. lolx.. there's simply just no time to go online on weekdays! ugh. especially after the disgusting CT results.. SIGH. if i din start to work harder, i'll prob just get retained or sth.. argh.. it's so depressing!! =(
My results so far: O7 for both chemistry and physics.
yucks. so much for an ex triple science student.. was quite disappointed wif myself actually.. wad the heck.. and i actually tot dat i could pass chem and get an E.. wad a fantasy. and not as if i din mug for it kaez.. okie, so it's either i'm plain stupid or my level of mugging is nowhere compared to other people's. and for now, i shall assume that the latter is true. =)
been punishing myself quite harshly recently for this failure.. stayed back with hup on thurs until like 7 sth in school doing physics of fluids tutorial.. [yepp, you can vomit.] haha.. dat makes us look so muggerish.. when in fact.. we din even get 50 for phy. sigh.
and of course, there's the fact that ALL my other indo friends are doing well for their CTs.. a lot of As and Bs here and there.. sth dat will only be an unachievable dream for me at this stage. sigh. oh well, i'll really try to work harder for promos.. dat's all i could do anyway.. =(
on a happier note, i manage to get a B for maths.
yayness!!!!! finally sth dat i can be happy about. =) suddenly i love maths a lot. hahax.. okie, dat's super lame. my brain seems to be affected by all this sadness and disappointment.. x_X really feel like a failure right now.. shall end of here then. tada~
RANDOMNESS!
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