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Thursday, October 20, 2005 ♣
so much for my happy ending

well, life isn't a fairytale and there's no such thing as happy ending. at least currently i think so. promos results are out and it really hits me hard on the face. like a big fat cold fish being slapped on my cheeks. again and again.

sigh.

most people are worried now. worried for different things though.

case 1: you qualify for S papers and have no idea which subjects to take. i suggest you don't try to ask your poor friends who score very badly for advice. not that they don't want to help you. but you're being very insensitive to their feelings. inferiority does exist.

case 2: you have to drop a subject and you have no idea which subject to drop. in that case it helps to ask as many people as possible. some people really do give an insightful advice on the matter. =)

case 3: you are on probation. [like yours truly] you have no idea whether to just drop a subject now and not bother about it again for the next CT. or should you try again next year and see first? but wad if you try so hard and you fail AGAIN? not sure whether your heart can take the emotional blow when that happens. i suggest that you do stick to 4 subjects though. bet your teachers have tried so hard to try to get you out of the "drop a subject" list to the "on probation" list. you shall try not to disappoint them. again.

case 4: worst case scenario.. you are retained. you feel like a failure. on one hand you feel like giving up and just go to a poly and forget all about JC education. on the other hand you really do want to lead a life in JC. but there is a new syllabus next year and you are not sure whether you can handle it. well, i do believe that you can. really really super duper hoping that you're coping with the situation and just want to let you know that ALL your friends do care a lot about you but some of them just don't dare to approach you to find out how you're doing. do take care..

case 5: you did okay. but your good friends did not. they seem to look sad and depressed most of the time and you don't know what to do. your mood is kinda affected and you begin to look sad too. then you got scolded for being frowny when you have done okay. although you feel satisfied but there is a small portion of your heart that feels empty. and you don't know why. i guess this is only temporary. i'm sure your friends do share in your happiness but they just need time to get over their own problems before they can be happy for you. but pls note that they DO feel happy for you. don't get them wrong. they're not jealous or anything.. okay maybe they are a little. but they definitely are happy for you. do trust them.

okay, pretty long entry.. i dunno wad i'm saying.. it sounds like a lump of whines and nonsense. lol. oh well, what are you expecting from a depressed person anw.. haha.. shall blog abt sth happy soon then. if there's any. =)


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