Wednesday, August 31, 2005 ♣
happie teacher's day!
hmm, happie teacher's day for all teachers! =) ahh well, so happie today.. no lessons, just celebration and pigging out! hehe.. really love the concert, SO nice! i think NJ standard not bad leh.. the choir people sang vr nicely.. =) too bad the PA system is a little sad..
ahh anw, din go baq to cedar today.. reasons being: din really miss any teachers that i desperately want to talk to and novi asked me out to go lunch at nydc wif other indo peeps. promise her since long ago le.. so yep.. anw, turn out that the guys back out at the last minute, saying they are tired.. so just left wif me, novi and adinia.. betta i guess.. girls can talk better mah.. lolx.
anw, got scolded by so many people today for not going baq.. *hikss*.. so sorry guys.. i din know SO MANY people will be going back.. now i kinda regretted la.. should've gone baq.. sigh.. i'm always like dat.. regretting things dat i've done.. sigh.. feeling so mean now.. oh well.. it's over anw.. next time will try to think properly before i make decisions.
at least i did enjoy the lunch.. hehe.. the food was nice and the company great. can't wait for promos to be over.. -.- then can go out to shop and do many other things! =)
RANDOMNESS!
6:12 AM
Friday, August 26, 2005 ♣
sp.. >_<
hmm, just read liwen's blog and decided to blog abt my unhappy incident. hahax.. read on if you're interested. =]
it was a gloomy tuesday morning [sounds like i'm writing an essay.. -.-] and i had angklung stuff to do.. had to perform for some vietnamese people. so i came super early to school. boarded the 6.40 bus instead of the usual 7.10 am. happens that sp loves coming to school so early.. so we were on the same bus. *yikes* for those who din know, she lives at toa payoh and go to the same bus stop as me. how lucky of me.
the bus was quite full.. so i was sitting on this seat that is facing the side of the bus. and of all places, sp sat exactly right opposite me. x_X decided to pretend she's not there and start mugging for chem test. when alighting from the bus, i let her go 1st. [later she say i so rude not to give way to her..] and when i alighted, she was actually waiting for me at the bus stop!! ugh.. staring at me with those daggers look on her face. so erm.. here's the conversation:
me: erm, morning ms phua.
sp: who's your civics tutor?
me: mr kenneth koh.
sp: ohh. S5E. very bad class. full of bad people.
me: ERM, a lot of teachers said so but.... [din even manage to finish my sentence. was abt to say that i personally think that it's okay..]
sp: you are one of them.
me: x_X *looking on the ground*
sp: remove all the jewelleries [i was only wearing a tiny little necklace], remove the coloured socks [okie, this one my fault], remove all the painted nails [it was only silver glitter].
me: okay.
shucks la. so she has been staring at me the whole time we're on the bus la. sigh. apparently too free and nth better to do.. she has such eagle eyes.. can even see the silver glitter on my nails..
after the scolding, i walk VERY slowly and let her cross the bridge 1st. sadly, life isn't so good. when i reached the top of the stairs, realised that she's waiting for me
again.. o_0
sp: it's already bad enuff that i had to warn you twice.
me: erm, okay.
HAIZ.. she actually remembered that she got scold me before.. lolx. dat time i was wearing dangling earrings. so unlucky la. everytime always got caught one.. =( from now onwards, i'll be a good girl! no more jewelleries.. no more painted nails.. no more nice pretty earrings. but there'll still be coloured socks. haa. don't have white socks la. what to do.. -.-
so this is the 3rd time sp has scolded me. hmm.
how lucky. she got scold me before for talking very loudly outside lt1 in indon language.. so racist.. sigh.. if i'm talking in english she prob won't care so much. anw, i din even talk THAT loudly lo.. wad the heck..
oh well.. shall end off here.. before i say some more bad stuff.. lolx. hope no authorities read this. *cross fingers and pray hard*
RANDOMNESS!
8:33 AM
blood donation drive
aiyaaaaaaaa.. regretted that i din donate blood.. which is in excess amount.. -.- feel so mean and evil! other skinny ppl are like so enthu to donate.. sigh.. and here i am finding excuses for myself.. ugh.. well, i am scared of the needle for one.. plus that day i haf night duty and i'm scared i'll feel tired and lethargic.. plus there's no one to accompany me also.. ah well, there you go.. excuses and EXCUSES! >.<
PROMISE that i'll go and donate next year. i will. i will. i will. hehe.. was quite disappointed with myself because of this issue.. hmm.. wonder if there's sth wrong with me.. little little things also become vr sad.. haiz.. shall go and reflect.. =/
anw, on a brighter note, pon PE today. haha.. cos leg injured mah.. the flesh is all rotten now.. *yucks* bathing is super painful! -.- anw, my damn fault for tripping over air molecules la.. shall suffer the consequences now.. =(
can't wait for passion pursuit day! i think it's gonna be more fun than i tot it would be.. hehe.. i wanna go for mr koh's rapping.. then mr leong's grooming [lol], the dessert making (but haf to sign up..) and if possible, mrs koh's knitting. hahax.. feel like learning how to knit. *grins* actually also feel like looking at mr sito doing the ballroom dancing thingy.. but erm.. dancing is totally not for me.. so forget it. hahax.. =P
hols are coming soon.. YAY! soo tired already.. can't sustain the adrenaline level.. need some rest.. >.< hmm, i wonder how people did it. din study but yet can do so well in tests. haf tonnes of commitments but still got time to do their tuts. am i just such a slow poke in doing things? x_X
RANDOMNESS!
7:38 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005 ♣
colours award 2005 - constellation of stars
finally updating my dear blog! hehe.. hmm.. actually am feeling quite disappointed right now.. was reallyyy hoping that a certain someone was online.. but sigh.. it just isn't fate. i'll prob never be able to talk to that person. ever. ah well, it's okie.
yesterday was the colours award.. =) it was so nice! love the performances. love the food. love the people. love everything about it. and feeling sad now that it's over. sigh. i feel weird though.. i am not even supposed to be there in the 1st place. lolx. since i'm not in syf and all.. but since angklung is performing.. there i was. felt so fortunate to be there. to be part of angklung ensemble. and i am really glad to have chosen to be a part of the angklung exco.
thank you lord for your guidance and for the wisdom to choose things that i won't regret. =)
angklung performance was a little screwd yesterday.. lolx. ahmad played a wrong beat during zapin and everyone was a little confused. but we managed okay. let's hope nobody noticed it. haha.. but the 2nd song, 'bengawan solo' was horrible! apparently mr dzul, our dear conductor, forgot that the base kulintang is supposed to start 1st.. so he signalled the angklung peeps to play.. and no one played. haa.. he repeated the signalling again.. and no one played again. *dead silence* he repeated again and zheng liang played his 5. o_0 but me, jieying and xt did not continue with our 3. hoho.. so there it was, in the middle of silence, someone suddenly played a note. cons called it the disrupted silence.. haha.. okie, shall not rmbr it anymore. anw, some people still say that it's nice.. heehee.. so happie to hear that. =)
top of the list is of cos choir.. hehe.. they sang soo beautifully ytd.. the 2nd song dat is. the 1st one is i dunno wad language? x_X 2nd song happened to be 'leaving on a jet plane'. such a sweet song.. aaahh.. and they all are so blessed with such beautiful voice.. should have recorded it! *grins* oh btw, heard from my choir friend that they were actually considering to sing 'for the longest time'. argh!! my favourite song! almost would have the chance to hear it.. after adinia boasted so much abt it, really really wanted to hear the NJ choir sang it.. heex.. it was too bad. sigh. =( ah well, let's hope there'll be other chances.
sometimes i really wish i could sing well.. hurhur.. okie, let's not be greedy and make dat 'wish i could sing'. then i could entertain myself when i'm feeling sad and down.. haha.. i shall stop spouting nonsense.
RANDOMNESS!
11:43 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005 ♣
daa dee dum
ahh.. been feeling kinda sad these days.. sobs.. there seems to be many qns popping out in my head.. and i dunno how to answer them.. been asking some friends abt some stupid problems too.. lolx.. sorry for disturbing you guys! i'm such a weak-hearted moron that i can't even handle my own problems.. argh! HOW PATHETIC! =(
casting that aside, had an angklung senior's farewell on saturday at es teler. din really enjoy myself due to some problems, both because of the admin stuff with the es teler stuff and also bcos some seniors don't look like they're enjoying themselves and i dunno wad to do.. =( sigh. but i do enjoy the last part vr much!! the gifts and the taking photos portion.. hehe.. that was so fun.. jieying and constance must upload the photos asap k! thankss! =)
oh, and i bought a new book shelf today at courts! soo happie.. hehe.. it was pretty heavy though.. wad nonsense.. it was supposed to be only 20 kg.. and divided by 2 (cos my dad was helping me), it should only be 10 kg. but my poor hands were like trembling all the way..... for like 5 hrs even after i reach my house and put the thing down.. boo00oo!
erm yah, i guess that would be all for now.. lolx.. din really haf anything nice to blog abt.. so might as well dun blog rite? din want to sound like i'm such an unhappy person.. hehe.. but wad's wif the unhappiness though? ugh..
wait. i think deep down i know why. but i don't dare to accept it. i don't want to admit that this silly thing is wad haf been keeping me unhappy and anti-social. i'm not such a weakling. i'll manage this just right. i'll be okay.
i guess at the end of the day, everyone's no. 1 fear is rejection and everyone's no. 1 need is acceptance. [okay, more like
mine]
RANDOMNESS!
3:14 AM